When I organised that crazy clearance sales and locked up my retail store for a short break some months ago, never did it occur to me that I might be kissing retailing a final goodbye (at least as a main-hustle) …
This was a venture I had run for over four years, one which I had thought would be my ‘final bustop’; one which I had intense passion and huge dreams for (we hoped to evolve into a leading Retail brand in this region, and even become a franchise), an empire I quit my promising career in IT and Aviation to build, and invested my life’s savings and probably a part of my inheritance in), and all that made it even more heart rendering…
I planned resuming business, but recession and other factors set in. I soon faced the harsh realities and bit the bullet. Getting a high interest loan out of desperation was a NO – NO. Why cover a torn piece of cloth with another, like Jesus said, and further delay the eventualities?
Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy:
when I fall, I shall arise;
when I sit in darkness, the Lord shall be a light unto me.Micah 7:8 (KJV)
Resuming operations with my meager savings plus some little available help (which I humbly refused) was also not an option, as that would only set me up for greater failure considering the nation’s economy during the recession (and the retail business is very capital intensive). How on earth would I later defend my sanity to my ‘helpers’ when everything failed again?
Then came fear, guilt, shame with bouts of doubt and uncertainty as expected.
So my seven-figure investment had truly gone down the drain. Just like that!
So I should have kept at it and not ‘foolishly’ shut down in the first place…
So my mistakes had eventually caught up with me…
So down time and staff issues have eventually finished my business..
So my business had failed now …
What would people say… ?
Would family be proud of me again ever… ?
What would I tell Church members…?
What would I say during testimony time…? (😂 …)
What should I do next?
For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again…Prov.24:16 (KJV)
Should I keep hoping to return, or should I just let go?
Should I return to paid employment?
Should I start another business? If yes, what exactly should I do?
The list of raging thoughts was endless!
Anyone who has suffered such a heart-rending loss at such an ungodly hour can relate!
My hope was dashed. My dreams were shattered.
Life has zero-tolerance for setbacks. So, you’d rarely get invited to an event tagged, “Starting All Over.” No wonder depression and suicide are on the increase @funmie_adebayoTweet
It takes a calm, still, trusting heart to hear God accurately; but how could I humanly keep calm?
“Be of God cheer when my life is up side down, Lord? You really must be joking!”
So, in my anxiety, my questions went unanswered. Worse still, my restlessness wouldn’t even allow anyone ‘hear God for me‘ if that were to be right. It was that bad.
Consequently, I had to depend on lame fleeces, mere mental calculations, intuition, and loads of guess-work , while my answer was so close-by.
It was really hard and tough, and I doubted if I would ever survive. But guess what??? God finally …read more
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